selfawaiting

Selfawaiting is a term that describes the experience of anticipating something one has personally initiated or set in motion. It's a specific type of waiting that arises from one's own actions or decisions, rather than external circumstances. This can range from eagerly awaiting a reply to an email you sent, to the anticipation of a project deadline you created, or even the time it takes for a downloaded file to appear on your computer after you clicked the download button.

The feeling of selfawaiting often carries a unique blend of responsibility and excitement. Because the individual is the architect of the situation, there can be a sense of ownership over the outcome and a heightened awareness of the passage of time. This can manifest as impatience, a desire to check on progress, or a deep focus on the awaited event. Unlike waiting for something entirely outside of one's control, selfawaiting involves a continuous, albeit passive, engagement with the ongoing process. The individual is aware they are in a state of waiting because of their own agency, and this knowledge can influence the emotional quality of the experience.